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Yeah, so I’ve been a lot of thinking lately. Surprised? Wednesday, at youth group, an interesting question was asked. “What makes you happy?” This really got me thinking. It was very hard for me to actually stop and consider what does make me happy. I made a comment about the fact that I really find enjoyment in helping others out, especially when it comes to computers. Times that I have to spend with friends, like this past weekend, that makes me happy. I think I spend so much time thinking about how alone I am that I don’t feel very happy a lot of the times. I think I’ve been living as though once I find that special someone that everything will be right in my world, that’s where I’ll find my happiness. Don’t get me wrong, if the day were to come that someone special was apart of my life, I would be very happy. I actually had a brief opportunity with this last fall. That came to a painful end, I would suspect that a lot of my unhappiness comes from that. After the reading I did tonight I got to thinking that I’ve kind of been stuck in what happened last fall. The was definitely a kairos moment, but I didn’t have the perspective of the circle Life Shape to help me through that moment. My last relatively lengthy post put out a plea to figure out what I am supposed to do as “finding someone” is concerned. What really makes matters worse is the reality that I turn 27 this month, this is so much closer to 30 than I’d really like it to be. I guess I start to feel like time is running out for me. The last three years have gone by so fast.

So what is my reality right now. I’m a single guy. I have a dog named Sweetie. I have a job in ministry where I get to used my gifts for God’s glory. I’ve been given the opportunity to serve in many capacities at church, small group leader; youth praise team leader; sound guy; worship team member. There are youth that surprisingly enjoy hanging out with me. I have a close friend that is always there for support, not far away. I’ve got a family of friends in town that, although I don’t get to spend much time with them, they care about me a great deal. Of course, the best of it all is God’s love, despite my downfalls. I must not forget, that even though there isn’t someone physically here that I can share my life with, God is always here, I’m not alone in Christ.
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