Daily thoughts and experiences from my mind and life.
God @ Work
Another Day With My Thoughts…
Aug 22nd
Well, I think the unfortunate thing is that I’ve lost my amazing blog audience. I can really only blame myself of course. Let’s see, the very fact that I’ve barely had a weekly update, er, ok so it’s barely made it to be a bi-monthly update. Well, on to my continued thoughts.
I think the crazy thing is I finally had to come to the reality that I need to let things go. It can be so easy for me to get worked up about something, and in the end it really isn’t very significant in the whole scope of things. What benefit is there to let myself get all worked up to the point where I can’t get to sleep and my mind just keeps cranking away. I know that one of my downfalls is that my mind always seems to be grinding away about something, or many things. It’s apparent as well that it obviously takes more energy to resist something than it does to just go along with it. Now, don’t take that the wrong way either. I’m not condoning anything here. I only mean that in my situation where something is relatively small in comparison to the grand scheme of things, it might be just as well to just let it go and move on. So yes, that is the way to go, but I’m not saying it’s easy to just let things go. I find myself still finding it hard to just let it go.
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What God Brings…
Jul 8th
It has been a few days since my last update. I think I should now be able to have more regular updates as I finally have internet access at my place, and my wireless is up and running. It’s not that I couldn’t post from Vanessa’s, that’s where the last one was posted from, I’ve just had a lot of other things to do during the day, and my best posting time is usually at night. If I’m at Vanessa’s in the evening we are usually spending time together, well I guess we’ve been spending just about all our evenings together. We have both talked about trying have more of a routine for the both of us. With the holiday during this week, and me still getting all settled in and not working yet, it’s been out of the norm for the both of us. I don’t think either of us mind all the time we’ve had to spend together, our times in the past were so rare it almost seems unreal to have all this time and flexibility, but we will need to settle into a more regular schedule and we’re definitly going to have to work on how late things get. I need to start taking the lead here I think, I need to be looking out for how much sleep Vanessa needs. I’m so much a night person and she is more of a morning person. I need to look at switching gears a bit and get my sleeping patterns adjusted.
I have to say that this week, or at least since I’ve gotten moved here, has been amazing. I’ve loved to see how God has continued to bring everything into place, and how He has blessed Vanessa and I with the time we’ve had to share together. Tonight was really in a way our first date for a long time. I simply cannot wait to be able to plan more date nights. I had so much fun and excitement planning things for tonight. I can only say that I still feel so amazingly blessed by God for everything He has given me, especially Vanessa. I simply can’t wait for all that know me to have the chance to meet her and get to know her. She has such a huge love and excitement for serving God, I love that about her. I’m sort of bumbed that I won’t be able to go on the Missions trip with her in a couple of weeks. I would have enjoyed so much to be able to serve along side her. I truly hope that God brings other opportunities for us to server together in the future.
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Your Attention Please…
May 15th
(Exodus 3:1-5) So God used a burning bush to get Moses attention. What does He use today to get our attention. I’m reminded of something a pastor said recently, “can we hear God’s whisper in this loud world?”, can we? The world that we live in is definitely busier and louder than in Biblical times. It took a burning bush even then to get Moses attention. Are we ready and willing to hear the whisper of God as He speaks to us?
One of my favorite songs right now is “Praise You in This Storm” and part of the chorus goes:
As the thunder rolls, I barely hear your whisper through the rain, “I’m with you”
That thunder is the things of this world, and the things we deal with in our lives that are shouting at us and drowning out God’s whisper. We are in such need of times of quiet, to get away from the busyness of life, so that we can be in a place to hear God’s voice.
God can use a lot of things to get our attention though. At times it seems that He usually attempts to get our attention most when hardship comes. I Do Not imply that all of our hardships are coming from God, actually God is not the one that makes hardships happen, rather He allows us to face hardships that are a result of a fallen world. Perhaps it is more a result of us realizing that we have a need for God during those hard times? When we can get through is on our own, or on the strength of those around us, where else is there to turn but God? It is however very sad that at times that is what it takes for us to come to Him. He desires to have a daily relationship, and walk, with us. Then again we so easy fall into the loud noise of this world. We get easily distracted when things seem to be going smoothly for us. God desires to share with us the goods times as well, not just the hard times.
Everything In It’s Time
May 7th
For me as a Christian, it seems that one of the things I struggle with most is leaving things in God’s hands. I don’t know if part of my struggle is because I’m a man, and I feel the uncontrollable urge to fix things and have eveything planned out. When I don’t know God’s plan, and how can any of us know it really, I realize I fall into the sin of worry. I think it’s probably the worst when I truly desire to leave my life in God’s hands and trust in His plans for it. It think we too, I know I do, fail in having the secret desire of want God’s will for our lives to be what we desire. Above all, I most desire that my will be His, that what I desire is what He would have me desire.
Most people now know that I’m looking to move to Michigan, and one of the big reasons is of course Vanessa. I have been so blessed by my relationship with Vanessa that I want to see where it will lead. I really feel that being closer will only help to strengthen our relationship and help us to get to know each other even better. One of the key struggles here is that when I move needs to be in God’s hands and timing. I don’t want to fall into pushing my own desires ahead of God’s perfect timing.
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